No, I am not going back to Church, or any other dogma.

I realised , that I had never been : as a child I went to church , cause it was just another playground for me to meet my friends, as a teenager it was to meet my fellows from the Youth Club we had in my village in Luxemburg. (some Sunday mornings were  with a little hangover, some had seen their beds just for 3 hours 😜,) I loved religion class in school for the old priest was such a gifted story teller ( fox and the wolf stories, I was as a child hanging on its lips literally, and he gave as a coin for ice-cream in summer).  NOTHING really religious.

 ( now gonna take the tight underwear of religion off , and let you read with more space 😂)

Why this title.?

Pretty good question.👑

I will never go in another sacred union but with MYSELF.

This is something that I knew for a while.

But only lately was I able to perceive  WHAT it really means to me.

Being HUMAN on this planet "Playground" ( remember its about Playing😜) was  more like having to drag a defaulted system behind me: unlovable, tolerable cause knows to behave well, unworthy  weak, imperfect.

The point where it becomes "itchy " is, when I am the creator in my life, as I am and each of us, then there is not only the human , there is the Master and   the Self/ Soul.

Using the Term "Master " was for me till now : good to interject in spiritual discussions , but I never did consider myself as such. 

Recently only it hit me  : I WAS BUT AN EXTRA IN MY LIFE  ( Creator of my life!!) instead of Art Director and Main Character /Superstar. 

In the easy life I have chosen, being in this Lifetime I have chosen to come as an Pioneer of NEW ENERGY  (YESSS!! IAM)

how do I want the energies serving me when in this Trinity Team ( MASTER HUMAN SOUL) each does its own or is not really  fully accepted and cheered as a Masterpiece Of Perfection.

Iam getting a bit high with the words floating out here.  So breath and..

Would I want marry me : YES !!

I am washed through with compassion and excitement simultaneously .

All that it needs is a shift in consciousness, a truly honest look within.

Allowing myself the grieve and some tears with letting go.

I realised lately that the sadness , tears , honest yes , but came more for letting go these old identities , AND the aspect , stories behind, not really about a person.

The wisdom of the Master ME  allowed me a new look on the stories in my life, we had some great "movie sessions"  together .

Still integration work 🙃 👑 takes place while each moment iam breathing life into my New Life, to let it take form. Each breath is announcing to the potentials and the energies "IAM HERE" , ready to receive.

I will never go back in the OLD HUMAN WAYS , I gonna stay here on this planet .

The New Human  knows now it can choose how I want feel in the experience, I will never be trapped in something, as I have felt in my old life ( prisoner in my job, my body my family ).

I feel waves of love , honor for Myself .🌺

Breathing , allowing and choosing ( like when you get new furniture in your new house, and You tell the workers if you want the sofa more to the right or left side. ) is all that it takes , and then to play and experience.

Leaving behind the cloudiness of what served me in old ways , when arriving here on this planet.

Feeling like plasma today, in a strange way of fullness, limitless, no barriers in the former body structures.

The world around seems some days dull, grey chaotic, or in overload: like a costume that once fit me?or I fitted in ?

Like this flower, which needs no light from the outside, it may have its "days" , it still radiates on its own, has its own energy pipeline: so do I .

Without any motion that requests an energy involvement, there still is a motion.

Like an electric vibrant tone you may perceive on some foggy days.

Sensing a soft joy, vibrancy just to Be.

Like a dance, spiraling that produces an energy that on itself it produces a constant flow.

TRAVEL and BEING,

traveling in this human , carbon structure, discover new territories, sensing new flavors sounds and vibrations, each country, city has.

AND traveling in the limitless motion in consciousness.

When for now resting /sleeping is a falling deeper within myself, and layers of passed identities /lifetimes can leave, like a silk veil that is taken off.

I realize that the "craziness of some days, makes room for a knowingness, and an allowing the energies to come in that serve me, like an intuitiv wisdom, birthing an action , that in theory makes no sense.

It feels different than the searching before: comparing it like trying to force a donkey to move. THIS new is more like a dancing flow.

The mind, may go a bit wild, for short, and calms as I allow him to serve me to go on the handlings of the 3D reality.

feels like a world Trip, and sensing a real TRIP coming in: trusting that at the perfect moment I take a deep conscious breath...ACTION!

Waking up in the morning , with a burning pain in my chest.

Sounded and felt like a crackling ice when its melting in the early spring sun.. ☀️ 

like you take a bite  in a delicious "Magnum" ice stick , with  the chocolate  cover all over ..and you bite and first you have those cold hard bits of the chocolate jumping into your mouth...

Well thats somehow it felt  that moment... and as sweet and warm when its all melting  ..

I knew it was time.. could hardly breath. for the heartache was so intense, And I allowed the dance with my soothing breath take me down to its caverns.

I knew I was facing long deep buried , hidden and run away .;

I remember encounters in my dreams  in that dark cave where I could feel A presence, smell its odem before I could sense him and see his eyes.

A DRAGON 's shapes in the  mid dark room, asking me "WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE"

And I know it was  an old part of myself, behind the threats and rows was  a huge pain.

Its not important WHERE WHY OR WHAT it was.

I keep breathing , feeling , allowing, tears, unstoppable made the release an soft soothing wave

I could sense and hear beyond human ears a crackling up the crust .

And simultaneously, a warm  deep love , a lightness took over all my being.

And this happening together with an  nagging urge to share, to connect,  to show up.

The mind tries  to get me " lets recreate the Wheel, or do something awesome.😜

Dear mind, take some holidays, 🧚🏽‍♀️ step behind and let me introduce to whom  NO ADDONS needed. 

   ALL that IAM  is just pure delicious joyful presence , dancing and enjoying  this human's experience, and the Master adding its  light of wisdom to these stories .

I feel I can nolonger shut down  for what I AM : it may be some days look human like, or banal, or childish. 

But what is for sure😂 is that I overstretched this article into A LOT MORE WORDS; STORIES THAN the Poem that was dancing inside of me💕

Maybe its just that I do not forget not to hold back or not  to share.

..just because of  what some old stories / Ego  did or might think , look at me or say .

Something I realized at the end of last year : I will never walk in YOUR shoes/never did; And you not in mine.

All that IAM is honoring  myself for where I came from  and put the MASTERS glasses on TO SEE what I allow.

Home is where IAM!!

So true, as I am about to leave my 1year stay and get off far from my homeland, where I was born. All that was so familiar to me: not that I identified myself with being Luxembourg or German...just comfortable.

And I just mention the human 3D reality, as I can feel ALL the other layers underneath...identities taken over the many roles I have played here , people that have been in my life and played with my identity ...

Beneath and even simultaneously to quite some sadness I feel Joy, curiosity for the new...going into not knowing , but following this inner voice and knowingness.

Detaching myself  and open the door to let the NEW in, let my BEEING ME in, expand: it has always been there, just hidden.

I still have 1 week until I pack my car with 2 suitcases, laptop and cards..and It took me 1 year since I had this dream of leaving with just THAT, nothing else.

I have felt into other options, but even if the trip lasts only for 3 month...here in this place it is done. I have to take my energy with me and  see WHAT lays  behind underneath. ..discover the JEM .

I will start in North Germany, and it sounds a bit like a farewell AND celebration, allowing that tingling vibrant kindred exited  curious open IAM, my Self..dancing and jumping cheering. 

It feels odd somehow heartache And that excitement Trust and FOLLOW but THAT.

SHT to the voices..It is a sensual dance with energies and consciousness.

I live with this reality, and all in the same I AM operating / being in another dimension where creation happens through IAM consciousness. , a place  where magic happens.

Bringing IT back home is  JUST BEING my living nature.

I feel it like through traveling I just expand all around me , NEW happens or IS already through ME BEING.

It is a sensual waving dance with in its centre a crystal light, radiating from and back to ME.

All I want IS JUST ME. AND  where all the rest ( what the human needs and wants) is just taking care of without me interfering or forcing it. 

How come? All I sense is that it IS JUST NORMAL THAT IT WILL BE LIKE THIS..!!

Breathing and feeling, sensing  

All that I truly am, diving deep into the core of me.

No past or future identification as a reference

BREATH

Dive down to next levels, endless, limitless

Finding at the end of the journey my very essence

Beyond all Beauty

Beyond all I ever felt, thought that I am or was

Discovering adventurous, NEWLANDS, with the dragon at its doorstep

and the only password seems like the question: 

Am I ready to let go everything?

No right or wrong just from the knowingness and inner wise of me, 

the answer is there and gets out with the next exhale....

No, I am not going back to Church, or any other dogma.

I realised , that I had never been : as a child I went to church , cause it was just another playground for me to meet my friends, as a teenager it was to meet my fellows from the Youth Club we had in my village in Luxemburg. (some Sunday mornings were  with a little hangover, some had seen their beds just for 3 hours 😜,) I loved religion class in school for the old priest was such a gifted story teller ( fox and the wolf stories, I was as a child hanging on its lips literally, and he gave as a coin for ice-cream in summer).  NOTHING really religious.

 ( now gonna take the tight underwear of religion off , and let you read with more space 😂)

Why this title.?

Pretty good question.👑

I will never go in another sacred union but with MYSELF.

This is something that I knew for a while.

But only lately was I able to perceive  WHAT it really means to me.

Being HUMAN on this planet "Playground" ( remember its about Playing😜) was  more like having to drag a defaulted system behind me: unlovable, tolerable cause knows to behave well, unworthy  weak, imperfect.

The point where it becomes "itchy " is, when I am the creator in my life, as I am and each of us, then there is not only the human , there is the Master and   the Self/ Soul.

Using the Term "Master " was for me till now : good to interject in spiritual discussions , but I never did consider myself as such. 

Recently only it hit me  : I WAS BUT AN EXTRA IN MY LIFE  ( Creator of my life!!) instead of Art Director and Main Character /Superstar. 

In the easy life I have chosen, being in this Lifetime I have chosen to come as an Pioneer of NEW ENERGY  (YESSS!! IAM)

how do I want the energies serving me when in this Trinity Team ( MASTER HUMAN SOUL) each does its own or is not really  fully accepted and cheered as a Masterpiece Of Perfection.

Iam getting a bit high with the words floating out here.  So breath and..

Would I want marry me : YES !!

I am washed through with compassion and excitement simultaneously .

All that it needs is a shift in consciousness, a truly honest look within.

Allowing myself the grieve and some tears with letting go.

I realised lately that the sadness , tears , honest yes , but came more for letting go these old identities , AND the aspect , stories behind, not really about a person.

The wisdom of the Master ME  allowed me a new look on the stories in my life, we had some great "movie sessions"  together .

Still integration work 🙃 👑 takes place while each moment iam breathing life into my New Life, to let it take form. Each breath is announcing to the potentials and the energies "IAM HERE" , ready to receive.

I will never go back in the OLD HUMAN WAYS , I gonna stay here on this planet .

The New Human  knows now it can choose how I want feel in the experience, I will never be trapped in something, as I have felt in my old life ( prisoner in my job, my body my family ).

I feel waves of love , honor for Myself .🌺

Breathing , allowing and choosing ( like when you get new furniture in your new house, and You tell the workers if you want the sofa more to the right or left side. ) is all that it takes , and then to play and experience.

Leaving behind the cloudiness of what served me in old ways , when arriving here on this planet.

Feeling like plasma today, in a strange way of fullness, limitless, no barriers in the former body structures.

The world around seems some days dull, grey chaotic, or in overload: like a costume that once fit me?or I fitted in ?

Like this flower, which needs no light from the outside, it may have its "days" , it still radiates on its own, has its own energy pipeline: so do I .

Without any motion that requests an energy involvement, there still is a motion.

Like an electric vibrant tone you may perceive on some foggy days.

Sensing a soft joy, vibrancy just to Be.

Like a dance, spiraling that produces an energy that on itself it produces a constant flow.

TRAVEL and BEING,

traveling in this human , carbon structure, discover new territories, sensing new flavors sounds and vibrations, each country, city has.

AND traveling in the limitless motion in consciousness.

When for now resting /sleeping is a falling deeper within myself, and layers of passed identities /lifetimes can leave, like a silk veil that is taken off.

I realize that the "craziness of some days, makes room for a knowingness, and an allowing the energies to come in that serve me, like an intuitiv wisdom, birthing an action , that in theory makes no sense.

It feels different than the searching before: comparing it like trying to force a donkey to move. THIS new is more like a dancing flow.

The mind, may go a bit wild, for short, and calms as I allow him to serve me to go on the handlings of the 3D reality.

feels like a world Trip, and sensing a real TRIP coming in: trusting that at the perfect moment I take a deep conscious breath...ACTION!

Waking up in the morning , with a burning pain in my chest.

Sounded and felt like a crackling ice when its melting in the early spring sun.. ☀️ 

like you take a bite  in a delicious "Magnum" ice stick , with  the chocolate  cover all over ..and you bite and first you have those cold hard bits of the chocolate jumping into your mouth...

Well thats somehow it felt  that moment... and as sweet and warm when its all melting  ..

I knew it was time.. could hardly breath. for the heartache was so intense, And I allowed the dance with my soothing breath take me down to its caverns.

I knew I was facing long deep buried , hidden and run away .;

I remember encounters in my dreams  in that dark cave where I could feel A presence, smell its odem before I could sense him and see his eyes.

A DRAGON 's shapes in the  mid dark room, asking me "WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE"

And I know it was  an old part of myself, behind the threats and rows was  a huge pain.

Its not important WHERE WHY OR WHAT it was.

I keep breathing , feeling , allowing, tears, unstoppable made the release an soft soothing wave

I could sense and hear beyond human ears a crackling up the crust .

And simultaneously, a warm  deep love , a lightness took over all my being.

And this happening together with an  nagging urge to share, to connect,  to show up.

The mind tries  to get me " lets recreate the Wheel, or do something awesome.😜

Dear mind, take some holidays, 🧚🏽‍♀️ step behind and let me introduce to whom  NO ADDONS needed. 

   ALL that IAM  is just pure delicious joyful presence , dancing and enjoying  this human's experience, and the Master adding its  light of wisdom to these stories .

I feel I can nolonger shut down  for what I AM : it may be some days look human like, or banal, or childish. 

But what is for sure😂 is that I overstretched this article into A LOT MORE WORDS; STORIES THAN the Poem that was dancing inside of me💕

Maybe its just that I do not forget not to hold back or not  to share.

..just because of  what some old stories / Ego  did or might think , look at me or say .

Something I realized at the end of last year : I will never walk in YOUR shoes/never did; And you not in mine.

All that IAM is honoring  myself for where I came from  and put the MASTERS glasses on TO SEE what I allow.