From State of mind to State of BEEING

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Travel wisdoms

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For a while now I am working with a very special book , called  "THE ARTIST'S WAY", by Julia Cameron.


It came to me through a friend that had already done this 12 weeks programm.


I must say , I did not really consider myself as an ARTIST.., but I AM a creator, right and to some extent I could sense a deeper meaning to it.  Right now I am finishing "week 10" , although nothing new really came up, like I did a great  painting.

Nevertheless, even in subtil bases, big shifts occur., changes  seem to happen faster, I seem even more aware of patterns, and myself.


Magic happens ONLY through me opening up, going from old to new : Self love- self worth, my communication and connection with others  becomes clearer.



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Walking in NEW Shoes

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Creating my SAFESPACE

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I am sitting here in my sleeping room in Hamburg, where i just experienced my first houesit: took care of a cat, NANOU.....


In reality , it was about going "more " ways of how things should happen , new ways of how answers, help, creations , wonders, should come to me.


Indeed, again i just can but BOW in front of my human...she ( nearly wrote IT...) is so bold , courageous   almost at a point of where she just can't do anything but dropping of the swords....sounds like i am talking of ADAM, dropping his sword..


What a blessing all this adventure , this experience here is .I had such a , my aspects gave me some headaches at a point i wanted to cancel, one day before leaving.....Truly!!


!And THANK ME, that i  am aware of my Self in such a way, that i could see behind it all.  I allowed myself to feel the resistence  and  went  for it anyway...

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MasterSoul, Human and Creations/Allowing

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Integrating the Feeling Of HOME

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 I woke up this morning after a short night, have been out with a friend , .feeling clear and clean : i had little alcool ..and the evening we had was something from a life i used to have before ( loud music, many people...)




And..i had this a MASTER  i design my life  the way i want  it to be...going into   EXPERIENCE... 

nothing more , nothing less...a sensual experience..sometimes  , and to me more and more as if  i am watching a movie in  cinema.....a big production with not only one topic, no sometimes a drama ( but only a few sequences , short..), or adventure..scary movie like..comedie most of the time

, and love....And i am  in both position  : MAIN ACTOR ...and OBSERVER ( sounds a bit like HUMAN and MASTER)




It came to me this  WEBDESIGNING and DESIGNING MY LIFE..out of a short discussion i had with a waiter yesterday evening....  My mastersoul  just showing me the hole picture, the  BIG PICTURE of it. LIVING in mass consciousness is    rather an unconscious creating , designed life ( some make it up to angels  or destiny)

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About Birthdays, Expectations and MUD-Diving

Yesterday, 17.1 was my 40+ Birthday!!Yeah...:)) 

And I had decided just to have a nice great day on my own..had some little ideas, but allowed myself to let it come to me.



Waking up  I already could feel it coming up smoothy  from old friend...(rather a dark grimmy grunchy jelli pirate.)


A  simple glance on my cellphone seemed enough to call him back furth!!..THE "ITS MY BIRTHDAY :::AND NO ONE has been THINKING OF ME  till now..just FORGOT ME..(sniff!..)


"You see, I told ya!!( the jelli one whispers from the off)..BLAME it on what you deserve!!

Just to show you the fun and irony: IT IS just ABOUT 10 o clock in the morning....

After a call from an old friend ,Raphael I took my car and drove to the city center of Luxemburg.:I wanted to try the new  modern glass elevator that takes you from the "upper city down to the "Paffenthal, oldtown part of Luxemburg.(.in my imagination, I thought it was rather fast and could give me a hence on what it feels like doing a jump from an heli)  

...just can tell you IT IS  NOT!!!  A SLUG was faster, but I  have to admit the view is AWESOME!!And the sun was there as well!


Then after a nice walk through the park in the oldtown I came to the main center and feeling hungry , I found myself a place for lunch...


....While waiting for my meal, I  took time to check what FILM I  had downloaded this morning.



This POOR ME...etc..this hole old crab, old layers that just took advanteg to show up in a sweet sensible moment..rather a kind of  state  I am actually..creating space for NEW, letting go old..ALLOWING  The Master  in  etc..and yes it did  feel  wirred and not nice....nevertheless for a short moment THAT day my human   and some aspects were struggling...One part of me did not want to feel this. I WANTED TO FEEL LIKE A GLORIOUS MASTER ON HIS BIRTHDAY...not a Glorious B....:)

...And, The GIFT lies in these moments..where  I  just can sit in my car (BENCH).. "ok . I Master see , feel and hear you..but the captain of this ship has changed  ,breathing ,allowing it all flow through.




..whether people on social media cheered me because FB reminded them  of my day or not, says nothing of WHO  I  am ,  my ability  of  making  deep connections with people  I choose  to invite  in my space.

I also saw myself  trying to make THIS DAY  SOMETHING  REALLY SPECIAL:  got ya:)))        Master  C is proud of me!!   IAM proud of MY SELF...WHY  Just on so called  " special  days  " only  allowing  to gift  myself  : this can  be  a spa day  and  dinner, or something I do  on a  regular  base  (walk , BE  in nature, barefoot  through  the  grass,   ( and even if it is ALWAYS the same).


Isn't it all about  I feel  about? Rather than  the price/ cost.?



..and my day was perfect  : champagne  during  a skype  call with  my friend  in  Berlin ,swinging on a kids playground with a black golden sky  over m

SO thanks to ME and all of you that without knowing it helped me through new realisations and clear ups this day!!!

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Benching .."I do it  MY WAY....."

The  last few weeks  I observed and followed this  BENCHING  thing on FB


Although during my walks  through nature   I do rest  on a bench.. but not  in the mindset  this phenomen really ( was about.


..until this morning..:


I had decided that today was a  perfect CHRISTIANE GIFTING DAY. !!meaning , have a nice lunch  with myself , then relax  the afternoon in a spa...!!


Packed my bag for the Spa ..And..there IT was again..could feel already  the  OLD WELL KNOWN DARK ONE  ..popping up each time I just wanna do something nice and fun for me..just like special reason....


Hi dear, do you really mean that its appropiate spending , rather spoiling  money for stupid pleasures YOUR SITUATION..hein..( I do not work for the moment)


Meanwhile my Master already relaxed in a nice  sun chair, bikini , and a fresh juicy cocktail in her hand..I knew she was there, would stay beside me....(think she just want to see how my human  is getting along.

I Am  the only  one  that takes  decision  on  how  I  want  spend  my  money

.no chance for any Aspect in whatever form it shows up.


Till now it   was  rather  a bbig   muggle  pool

Now, in  2017 It is enough.. so finally  I found myself in my car , SITTING   there,  my  todays  bench just allowing , with every breath in , breath out, let  it  all flow  through.  JUST  ALLOWING!!  TODAY I did it  MY NEW WAY..MORE to come soon!!

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Freedom..a word ..and so many "Faces".


I would like to go little deeper with it..For me it  is also in connection to abundance  mostly  in  connection  to  money.

But when I  allow my self really feel into it , It Is about : having the freedom to make plans  ( WHAT!! PLans!!) , and then change them ..just because.( dear human therefore plans are crab!")

 An example from real life:))?


Few days ago, I  had planed meeting  someone from  a group  in Maastricht, she had invited me to her place.



Iwas thinking about perhaps this time going by car instead of train.( seemed faster and beeing just with me)


Yes  I do  drive, but rarely over my usual ways around Luxemburg.. " comfort zone:)))

This time my human aspect wanted to PROVE : I CAN DO THIS!!



did not really sleep well....


SOMEHOW this  morning  , a  quick  look  outside  made  me  change  :  we  go  for   the  train.



NOW  the FUN begins:   I called the train train going in 5, ok  too  late!..Suddenly the lady from the train office interups me 

:oh wait, the train employee said: oh unfortunately the train HAS A 30 MINUTES delay!!! 


MASTER nearly laid down on the floor bursting in laughter...READY GOOOO!Not to mention that the hole journey went on smothy toes..and not to speak of the stay .( hello abundance, hello princess:))..the way back home..

 ABUNDANCE   and the FREEDOM to decide for MYSELF..Travel when where I  want , eat drink whenever ..and yes ASPECTS still do show up, even seem to speed up in intensity..and Allowing it all, trusting more and more the MASTER inside... letting go of limitations coming from the mind.








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New Data base please !!

I discovered recently something very intresting..How to put new programms in my mind and by doing so ..connecting new emotions and new experiences  to my life

A friend told me about Joe Dispenza (author and coach) or Alexander Hartmann, both  have  intrsting  theories  on  HOW  WE CAN  CHANGE  OUR  WAYS  OF  CREATING; BY  CHANGING  OUR  WAYS  OF  THINKING. 


Perhaps you do experience in some way what  I  mean..:Sometimes when   I'm with others   I (  "or whoever speaks in that moment..not Me", says my Master with slight disgust  in her voice) open my mouth and   WORDS come out of it..and 's like a part of me turns round to see if someone else behind me let out this crab!



Not so long ago,  I  would have argued myself and judged  hard for this.



What   I  find  intresting  in  the  above  mentioned ideas, is that it ALL starts with MY CONSCIOUS ; CLEAR DECISION  to be willing to change  ..and that it starts by  beeing present in the NOW...make clear what I allow coming , how  I wanna live and feel in this new..and by allowing this NEW DATA base , produce new synapses in my mind , feelings and therefore new results..I CREATE MYSELF THIS NEW LIFE, 

WHO else would be able to do I created it ALL myself till now..consciously or not.

It all makes sense to me...and it is just one way of possiblities to create..


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