Yesterday, 17.1 was my 40+ Birthday!!Yeah...:))
And I had decided just to have a nice great day on my own..had some little ideas, but allowed myself to let it come to me.
Waking up I already could feel it coming up smoothy from underneath..my old friend...(rather a dark grimmy grunchy jelli pirate.)
A simple glance on my cellphone seemed enough to call him back furth!!..THE "ITS MY BIRTHDAY :::AND NO ONE has been THINKING OF ME till now..just FORGOT ME..(sniff!..)
"You see, I told ya!!( the jelli one whispers from the off)..BLAME it on you...got what you deserve!!
Just to show you the fun and irony: IT IS just ABOUT 10 o clock in the morning....
After a call from an old friend ,Raphael I took my car and drove to the city center of Luxemburg.:I wanted to try the new modern glass elevator that takes you from the "upper city down to the "Paffenthal, oldtown part of Luxemburg.(.in my imagination, I thought it was rather fast and could give me a hence on what it feels like doing a jump from an heli)
...just can tell you IT IS NOT!!! A SLUG was faster, but I have to admit the view is AWESOME!!And the sun was there as well!
Then after a nice walk through the park in the oldtown I came to the main center and feeling hungry , I found myself a place for lunch...
....While waiting for my meal, I took time to check what FILM I had downloaded this morning.
This POOR ME...etc..this hole old crab, old layers that just took advanteg to show up in a sweet sensible moment..rather a kind of state I am actually..creating space for NEW, letting go old..ALLOWING The Master in etc..and yes it did feel wirred and not nice....nevertheless for a short moment THAT day my human and some aspects were struggling...One part of me did not want to feel this. I WANTED TO FEEL LIKE A GLORIOUS MASTER ON HIS BIRTHDAY...not a Glorious B....:)
...And, The GIFT lies in these moments..where I just can sit in my car (BENCH).. "ok . I Master see , feel and hear you..but the captain of this ship has changed ,breathing ,allowing it all flow through.
..whether people on social media cheered me because FB reminded them of my day or not, says nothing of WHO I am , my ability of making deep
connections with people I choose to invite in my space.
I also saw myself trying to make THIS DAY SOMETHING REALLY SPECIAL: got ya:))) Master C is proud of me!!
IAM proud of MY SELF...WHY Just on so called " special days " only allowing to gift myself : this can be a spa day and
dinner, or something I do on a regular base (walk , BE in nature, barefoot through the grass, ( and even if it is ALWAYS the
Isn't it all about I feel about? Rather than the price/ cost.?
..and my day was perfect : champagne during a skype call with my friend in Berlin ,swinging on a kids playground with a black golden sky over m
SO thanks to ME and all of you that without knowing it helped me through new realisations and clear ups this day!!!