I am sitting here in my sleeping room in Hamburg, where i just experienced my first houesit: took care of a cat, NANOU.....
In reality , it was about going "more " NEW..new ways of how things should happen , new ways of how answers, help, creations , wonders, should come to me.
Indeed, again i just can but BOW in front of my human...she ( nearly wrote IT...) is so bold , courageous almost at a point of where she just can't do anything but dropping of the swords....sounds like i am talking of ADAM, dropping his sword..
What a blessing all this adventure , this experience here is .I had such a resistence..no , my aspects gave me some headaches at a point i wanted to cancel, one day before leaving.....Truly!!
!And THANK ME, that i am aware of my Self in such a way, that i could see behind it all. I allowed myself to feel the resistence and went for it anyway...
I just knew this time I want go for it..going beyond my inner manipulator. I can feel right now that I took a big leap: being able to sense the diffrence of energie: resistance or simply my inner compass telling me to check again AND going even beyond this: because my MASTERSOUL just jumps into every experience ,drinks the wisdom, bathes herself into the sensuality of it and ENJOYS.
When I went for letting go my little human stubborn expectations ,this FILM my mind made up and put on REPLAY days before.... I experienced MAGIC..
From the weather forecast, to the travel itself: when I decided to go for a walk, wheather was always perfect at that moment( knowing that IT did rain a lot, cold windy...) Or: there were some works on the SBAHN going on, meant I had to take different busses and never had really to wait for the next one. Or people gave me answers to questions I didn't ask them .
Professor Adamus was also present: the day I arrived I had to take a bus , very crowdy and heavy energy ,all of sudden a woman sat in front of me quite smiling: right when I felt I WILL NOT STAND THIS HOUR DRIVE....
She just was there, smiling quitly breathing, AND I started doing the same, feeling quickly coming back to mySELF, more clear, like in a coocoon of my own safe space .Without asking her anything, she just showed me where I had to get out, and take the following bus.
I gave myself a gorgeous and beautiful lesson in allowing it all to come to me.
The owner of NANOU , the cat , is a teacher and has a 13years old daughter ,very much new energy ,in a strong clear and stubborn way, not letting herself push for anything.
Told you that this housesit showed up completely not the way not the way it was "supposed to be :because of the weather this lady's plans didn't work .
To make it short: it ended up that I had my first 2 days of the sit with two 13years old teenagers, did a lot of talking , cooking, watching films .I got informations of future potentials for a kind of work I wanted to do long ago, (and I am doing already in dreams on THEOS).Her mom told me that in this school , a former nurse now works there as an assistant( for Kids that do not "fit" in the system , somehow like a mediator between teachers and them).
To explain : as a kid I always wanted to become a teacher. I let it go because of long studies ,then for years I have had this dream of teaching the new ones, telling them a bit about how humans live on this planet.
This all may seeem not so special, but I got so exited. My master jumped like a child .My whole stay just was smooth, and in every step , whenever I just let go of resistence , fears , or whatever ,.another wondrous picture showed up , blossoming like a flower in spring.
AND I created ALL OF IT ! So easter with this rebirthing topic, fits my story perfectly. AND it is still not over, because the lady asked me for another sit in Mai and August.
When, weeks ago I was panicking about the idea of leaving my country without having precise plans, now I feel calm and trust myself more and more. It all unfold ...step by step ....simply by ALLOWING.