For many days , or weeks I am experiencing intresting things in my life/in me.
Till now , for years, I never felt save . Today I know that it is because I did not feel save with myself. A whole box of old stuff was connected to this: as long as I continued playing the "unsafetyness" , I could always hold on to OUTSIDE world, not taking fully responsability for my self, and my creations ( conscious or not).
For few month now I am following a group of Master Creators, with regular meetings, workshops , where people from all over the world come together: exchanging, creating enjoying life having fun together.
Since then I started showing up in FB groups( something I never had done before, and judged fearcely till now), my writings, and also expressing myself in a way, I was avoiding many years.
Well, ME..first of all. I am fed up hanging on the old aspect "little me, hiding, moaning alone in her little space", getting more and more frustaded , tired of it.
And, I expanded my definition of the SAFESPACE!!
Meant, that I had started for a moment now FEELING /SENSING myself, taking the entire "rattail" of stuff back home to me ( so that old games were impossible) . Allowing a truthful look at my creations till now, WHAT I really want to create now , and got support from someone I felt safe with in this group.
I have allowed moments of despite, anger, fear , sadness, pure joy of just sensing myself in a way I had refused for long time.
I have allowed listening to my SOULS voice again, tuned down for years, jumping with my human into "a voide" and moments later finding US on the back of a dragon , jelling and screaming in pure delight!
What I mean is that I can and only I do define my OWN SAFESPACE : as long as I am with myself, I AM safe: cause I decided IT to be so!
This is a complete new way of living, AND the only one I can go for now .
This brings up also things like: I decide to quite my job ( 1 year ago), leave my appartment and country I lived all my life, with no all made up plan where I will land. Or yesterday: I went LIVE on an internet gathering ( 24hours gathering with Michael and Robert Theiss), where I spoke live in front of many people from all over the world about my journey as MASTER and HUMAN.
Simply, because my heart was pumping so wild, nearly to explose in my chest, my Soul already pushing the "show hands" button, long before my human was finally ready to go for it, and this pain, stopped as soon as I spoke up in front of Robert "Michael_"
My mind is telling me that everyone before and after me had much more intresting, intelligent things to say, " fuck you!!!IT IS ENOUGH: I DID IT BABY, HELL YES , and even today I feel happy and proud about it!
I have a voice "HELLO", and I have decided to let my Mastersoul speak up through me and then IT IS ALWAYS SAFE !