For a while now I am working with a very special book , called "THE ARTIST'S WAY", by Julia Cameron.
It came to me through a friend that had already done this 12 weeks programm.
I must say , I did not really consider myself as an ARTIST.., but I AM a creator, right and to some extent I could sense a deeper meaning to it. Right now I am finishing "week 10" , although nothing new really came up, like I did a great painting.
Nevertheless, even in subtil bases, big shifts occur., changes seem to happen faster, I seem even more aware of patterns, and myself.
Magic happens ONLY through me opening up, going from old to new : Self love- self worth, my communication and connection with others becomes clearer.
2 weeks ago, I decided to be part of a programm "LIFE2.0", a friend of mine, and a coach offered.
From the begin on I felt attracted, and again an old issue : money showed up.
Mind blabla ... telling me I have to watch out my finances, beeing on the road from july till....', you do not need it, .....this was very soft, and endlessly working with me.
I felt that there was something more to this than just the information through this programm.
A week later I thought, "ok just the 1:1 , I am not for group stuff , for such a long time (underneath this I was aware that it was simply a matter of cheaper, and wanting to hide)
Some days of real intense breathings, fear so deep, I decided very consciously to break these chains and go for the ALL IN, means the programm in the group.
As soon as i did it, peace, calm inside of me, no big issue anymore!! This all happened on a very intense human base., with many hours of my MASTER hugging and caring for me.
Speaking of magic : the day after I paid the class, my Gong was sold( I have been trying this for month), and for a little more than the price of the programm.
People, come into my life from Canada, Brasil, strangers come talk to me all of a sudden like on coincidence,. AND I then no longer hide , meaning I talk to them in the same way I do with the conscious Master groups I meet with.
Something I wouldn' t have done before, fearing their judgments etc
The truth is: they find me, because they want hear NEW ways of how to life, to create.
SINCE I have jumped into LIFE, even if I still do feel intensly the human struggling, rather human limitations, I DECIDED TO CREATE NEW, following my intuition , getting the human away from my path, and go for the master guide.
Funny stuff is that I see how it relays on money as well , let go of how financial abundance has to happen.
Whenever I got over now the issue of CHEAP, decide in my self worth taking for example a nice beautiful hotel , instead of staying in a friends house to save money : I get a super cool new room, come in a discussion with this brasilian lady that never before talked to a guest in the elevator before. She lives in the appartments above the hotel. We had a beer together and she offered me a job in her company in Berlin...Potentials show up, telling me to trust myself, AND there will be always someone to help me out, when needed.
Although I am not, have never been good in maths, today I put up a new equation :
PASSION + SELFLOVE = FREEDOM / LIFE IN MASTERY