The last couple of days , I have gone through some preadvanced "automn storms", just for the human.
Cause when I step into the Master Self, it is just the perfect respons to what I had asked for.
HMM did I ?
I smile, now..and just a breath to soften and widen up, allowing a gentle warm breeze flow through the house of mine, clearing up and refreshing what was still stuck, layers of "dust", of old believes, uncomfortable like hell .
In the End it is just making room, for WHAT IAM choosing now.
Creating my LIFE in the ease and grace of a conscious Master.
Mind , Ego, Aspects are having a halloween party, yelling, and when it seems really TOO easy( says WHO??), my dramaqueen joins the festivitys, ....
The point of change now is: I just let them be, stop at the door..no further .
It is simply nolonger question to go that way.
Physically, feeling nosious, heart beats very fast, fears of all kind , grabbing me by the guts .
Sitting, breathing, taking me out of any distruction to avoid feeling.
Every breath gently expandingly grounds me deeper and takes me back into my SAFE SPACE , inside of me.
Then , is like opening the window in an old space, when pure light flushes into the room : finding myself in the warm peaceful home of Self.
SHHTTT , I take over now, remember.
Challenging , yes it feels like a muscle that has rested for long long time, now starts to get trained again.
It is nothing NEW, I know this way of BEEING, I know this voice, and I can feel it.
It is not even a plan B to go any further the other direction, even if it will tell me:we are safe, you know us.
The thing is, it is only comfy, not safe, if just in a illusionary way, cause I made up patterns to cope with what truly feels "wrong".
And, at the point that I Am, allowing , Beeing creating from a NEW level, old worn socks no longer work.
No fixing, or holding on to I discover how easy , more and more my life becomes.
If I am choosing it.