Some of you may be familiar with the 90's song "runaway train( is never coming back)" The song was written to help find back young people that had disappeared from home, ..many had been found back through this song and the video.
For me this has a diffrent scent than the sad, dramatics behind it: means its a promise more even a choice I have made.
Stopping the rollercoaster/ running away from whatever stands at my frontdoor.
Not only does it get easier allowing to feel, above all I realise the last days that only by making this conscious choice , potentials , impulses, clarity comes forth for whatever question I have right now.
Even if I sometimes feel like stirring up the same porridge soup, its not!
With each time I go deeper, feel myself I honour those parts I kept pushing away so often.
They are just like kids that want have my attention.
There is no falling back , just deeper in myself,layer after layer...And it doesn't take the intensity from it.!! AT ALL!!
I discover nowadays, that this is kind of taking care , cleaning up. I feel raw and vulnerable. It brings me closer to mySELF
Letting pass the runaway train frees me from a weight that I decided nolonger willing to carry.
I want travel light and easy. gliding into and through.