Waking up in the morning , with a burning pain in my chest.
Sounded and felt like a crackling ice when its melting in the early spring sun.. ☀️
like you take a bite in a delicious "Magnum" ice stick , with the chocolate cover all over ..and you bite and first you have those cold hard bits of the chocolate jumping into your mouth...
Well thats somehow it felt that moment... and as sweet and warm when its all melting ..
I knew it was time.. could hardly breath. for the heartache was so intense, And I allowed the dance with my soothing breath take me down to its caverns.
I knew I was facing long deep buried , hidden and run away .;
I remember encounters in my dreams in that dark cave where I could feel A presence, smell its odem before I could sense him and see his eyes.
A DRAGON 's shapes in the mid dark room, asking me "WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE"
And I know it was an old part of myself, behind the threats and rows was a huge pain.
Its not important WHERE WHY OR WHAT it was.
I keep breathing , feeling , allowing, tears, unstoppable made the release an soft soothing wave
I could sense and hear beyond human ears a crackling up the crust .
And simultaneously, a warm deep love , a lightness took over all my being.
And this happening together with an nagging urge to share, to connect, to show up.
The mind tries to get me " lets recreate the Wheel, or do something awesome.😜
Dear mind, take some holidays, 🧚🏽♀️ step behind and let me introduce to whom NO ADDONS needed.
ALL that IAM is just pure delicious joyful presence , dancing and enjoying this human's experience, and the Master adding its light of wisdom to these stories .
I feel I can nolonger shut down for what I AM : it may be some days look human like, or banal, or childish.
But what is for sure😂 is that I overstretched this article into A LOT MORE WORDS; STORIES THAN the Poem that was dancing inside of me💕
Maybe its just that I do not forget not to hold back or not to share.
..just because of what some old stories / Ego did or might think , look at me or say .
Something I realized at the end of last year : I will never walk in YOUR shoes/never did; And you not in mine.
All that IAM is honoring myself for where I came from and put the MASTERS glasses on TO SEE what I allow.